Every time you show your feelings, you apologize. Have you ever had an emotion in your life that you weren’t ashamed of? - R.J Anderson, Ultraviolet (via orionvanessas)

(Source: baker-94, via luminescent-sea)

Sometimes you just have to cry and scream “I miss you” at the stars.

I can’t compete, so why do I even bother?

I’m not the funniest or the
cutest or the one with the
most adventure; on the
spectrum of people I’m
severely neutral. I make
excuses for my silent phone
and empty inbox, but the
truth is I’m just forgettable. - anne, left out (via anneisrestless)

(via boboshka)

you know when you feel like you deserve love so you try to do nice things for yourself but then you’re so irritated that it does matter

BECAUSE I DO

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Anonymous: "It's a metaphor" I have no doubt that you completely understand and stand by this statement that the act of putting an unlit cigarette in Augustus Waters' mouth is in fact a metaphor. But for some folks, we don't see it asa metaphor, we see it as situational irony, or a simple statement. Please explain how it is a metaphor.

fishingboatproceeds:

Well, a character in a novel saying that something is a metaphor is not the same thing as the author of the novel saying that it’s a metaphor. Gus’s intellectual grasp often exceeds his reach (he calls a monologue a soliloquy, and misuses quite a few of the bigger words in his vocabulary). But I do think the cigarette is a metaphor, albeit a different one for us than it is for him.

Gus’s idea is that the cigarette is a metaphor for illness, and he keeps it unlit and in his mouth as an expression of his power over illness. “You put the killing thing between your teeth but you don’t give it the power to do its killing.” Gus’s thinking here is that HE has the power. This is why he tends to use the cigarette when he’s feeling nervous or powerless. (He’s also using the most famous commercially available carcinogen to make this statement, so obviously there’s a connection there in his mind: Humans can prevent cancer by not smoking; cancer is something we can have power over; your job is not to give cancer the power to kill you; etc.) 

But of course Gus is wrong about all of this, or at least almost all of it. You may have SOME control over whether you die of cancer (you can choose not to smoke), but in most cases humans don’t have control over illness. “You don’t give it the power to do its killing” imagines more agency over illness than we actually have, because in the end much of the fault is in the stars, not in ourselves. So to us, the unlit cigarette is a metaphor for our false perception of control, and our urgent need to feel in control. It’s no coincidence, then, that when Gus’s life is spiraling out of control and he finds himself powerless before fate, he tries (and fails) to buy cigarettes.

really fucking emotional for no fucking reason send help please ugh fuck

NSFW ASKS YEAH LET'S GET WEIRD
  • 1. What tends to feel better for you, sex or masturbation?
  • 2. Your 5 favourite spots to be stimulated.
  • 3. Have you ever had your prostate stimulated?
  • 4. Have you ever had an orgasm from anywhere other than your genitals?
  • 5. Do you prefer clitoral or vaginal stimulation?
  • 6. Can you touch your clitoris directly, or does that hurt?
  • 7. Are you well-acquainted with your G-spot?
  • 8. Are handjobs boring, or underrated?
  • 9. Do you like having your balls touched?
  • 10. Do you like having your nipples touched?
  • 11. Do you like having your anus touched?
  • 12. Have you ever been fisted (anally or vaginally)?
  • 13. Do you like mild roughness (scratching, spanking, hair-pulling, etc.)?
  • 14. Do you have any kinks?
  • 15. Are you into anything under the BDSM umbrella?
  • 16. Do you pee in the shower?
  • 17. Do you ever masturbate in the shower?
  • 18. Have you had sex in the shower?
  • 19. Do you like being naked?
  • 20. Do you sleep partially/fully naked?
  • 21. Have you ever skinny dipped?
  • 22. What's the most unusual thing you've done nude?
  • 23. Have you ever to a nude beach, naked party, or other situation involving casual nudity?
  • 24. Are you comfortable being seen partially/fully naked by family or friends (i.e. getting dressed, etc.)?
  • 25. Are you comfortable with partners seeing you nude in non-sexual contexts?
  • 26. Have you ever showered with someone (non-sexually)?
  • 27. Do you care if a partner sees you going to the bathroom?
  • 28. Do you have naked pictures/videos of yourself? If yes, have you sent them to anyone? Are they online?
  • 29. How many sexual partners have you had?
  • 30. How often do you masturbate?
  • 31. Age you started masturbating? How did you discover/learn about it?
  • 32. What position do you typically masturbate in (laying on back, on stomach, sitting up, etc.)?
  • 33. Describe your masturbation routine, technique, etc.
  • 34. What do you masturbate to (porn, smut, imagination, etc.)?
  • 35. Have you ever masturbated to the point you got sore?
  • 36. Your thoughts the first time you got up close and personal with the opposite set of genitals?
  • 37. Have you ever "compared" (genitals, breasts, whatever) with a friend?
  • 38. What kind of underwear do you normally wear?
  • 39. Do you ever go commando?
  • 40. Have you ever had a wet dream/orgasmed in your sleep?
  • 41. How big is your penis?
  • 42. Does your penis curve at all?
  • 43. Which testicle hangs lower?
  • 44. How big are your breasts?
  • 45. Do you long or short labia? Are they even or uneven?
  • 46. Do you have a particularly large or tiny clitoris?
  • 47. Are you circumcised or no? Are you happy with it?
  • 48. Are you turned on or off by foreskin, or don't care?
  • 49. What are you more into (or like more about yourself), boobs or butts?
  • 50. Do you find genitals physically attractive, or weird/gross, or not feel strongly either way?
  • 51. Do you like the way your genitals look?
  • 52. Would you be able to pick out your genitals from a lineup?
  • 53. Do you like your butt?
  • 54. What do you do with your pubic hair (shave, trim, wax, nothing, etc.)?
  • 55. Do you care/have a preference what partners do with their pubic hair?
  • 56. Do you tuck your penis a certain way (i.e. left or right) when you get dressed?
  • 57. Do you have or want any genital piercings? Do you like any on other people?
  • 58. What is the quickest you've ever brought yourself (or been brought) to orgasm?
  • 59. Do you ever "edge" (repeatedly stop and start) when masturbating?
  • 60. What's the longest masturbation session you've had? Longest sex session?
  • 61. What's the most orgasms you've had in one session (of anything)?
  • 62. Do your orgasms tend to be full-body, or crotch-centric?
  • 63. Spit or swallow?
  • 64. When you ejaculate, do you more shoot or dribble?
  • 65. Is it hot or gross to get ejaculated on?
  • 66. Do you "squirt?"
  • 67. Have you ever attempted (or succeeded) to give yourself oral?
  • 68. Have you ever given/received a footjob, boobjob, etc.?
  • 69. Have you ever had sex in a public place?
  • 70. Have you ever had sex in a bed/on a couch that didn't belong to either of you?
  • 71. Have you ever had sex/masturbated while somebody was sleeping near you?
  • 72. How many rooms of your house/apartment/etc. have you had sex in?
  • 73. Strangest/most unique place you've had sex? How about masturbated?
  • 74. Have you had any sexual experiences that were downright gross?
  • 75. Are you particularly "vocal" when masturbating/having sex?
  • 76. Have you ever been caught masturbating/having sex?
  • 77. Have you had or do you want to have a threesome (or foursome, or more)?
  • 78. Do you own any sex toys?
  • 79. Have you ever used a homemade sex toy, or a regular object as a sex toy?
  • 80. Can a dildo feel as good as a penis (assuming the person with the penis is good at what they do)?
  • 81. What are your favourite positions?
  • 82. Your most embarrassing sexual experience?
  • 83. Worst place/time you've ever gotten a boner?
  • 84. Have you ever had any genital injuries?
  • 85. Have you ever had a sexually transmitted infection?
  • 86. Have you ever had a non-sexually transmitted genital infection (yeast infection, etc)?
  • 87. If you lack a penis, have you ever tried to pee standing up?
  • 88. If you lack a penis, how familiar are you with how you look down there?
  • 89. Do you think you're "good" at sex, or your performance/skill could use improvement?
  • 90. Have you "sexted" (whether through text messaging or IM chat)?
  • 91. Have you masturbated for or with someone via webcam?
  • 92. Have you have phone sex?
  • 93. If you had the opposite set of genitals for a day, name 5 things you would do.
  • 94. What's something you like about your body?
  • 95. What's something you dislike about your body?
  • 96. What body parts do you find the sexiest?
  • 97. What was your most recent sexual thought?
  • 98. Do you ever just play with your boobs, penis, labia, etc.?
  • 99. When was the last time you touched your genitals?
  • 100. Do you often imagine people naked?

I hope you’re both taking good care of each other. I miss you, so much.

pony